Kisses, Cuddles and a Cry

Last Friday, I had my most favorite moment with my little Trent Monster yet.

My parents were in West Tahoe last weekend for a friend's daughter's wedding. My dad, a friend of his and the father of the bride, wanted to go fishing on our property in Truckee, so we met them up there for a quick camping trip. We also had to drop a picnic table off at the property which, by the way, is the coolest picnic table you will ever see. The middle board removes and is a cooler that you can put beer in! It's great!

Anyhow, my dad met us there on Friday, played with the kids for a bit and then went back to Squaw Valley. That night, I put Trent to bed as I always do and he was just a little cuddle monkey. He pulled me back into the cubby hole that is the bunk beds in the trailer, and pulled me down so that I would lay with him. I had to fight off my claustrophobia as I sang Trent his nightly songs and cuddled for a bit. Soon, he was asleep and I rushed to bed as well, bound and determined to get as much sleep as I could because I knew my dad would be back with his friends early the next morning. I know it makes me sound old, but we were so excited to get in bed before ten! I knew that I would get a total of 9+ hours of sleep and I couldn't wait.

A few minutes after I laid down, Trent began screaming for me. I tried to let him cry it out but he wouldn't stop calling for me and it isn't like him to cry at bedtime. So, I crawled back into the cubby hole and cuddled some more. Trent's favorite thing in the world is for me to run my fingers through his hair and scratch his scalp. It will make him fall asleep instantly! I sang to him and ran my fingers through his hair and he was out like a light.

Again, I ran to my bed and was out instantly! Trent woke up screaming bloody murder at 2:30 in the morning. For the last few weeks, he has been waking up from nightmares a few times a night but he always falls back asleep on his own. Because we were in a new place, I went to his rescue. After all, his screams for "Mama, mama," over and over broke my heart.

For the third time, I crawled into bed with him and held him tight. He had large tears streaming down his face as his big brown eyes bore into mine. He was shaking from his nightmare and he pulled me down into his and repeated, "Mama, cuddle. Mama, cuddle." I pulled him into the crook of my arm, kissed the top of his head about a million times and sang softly until he calmed down which took quite awhile! He started dozing off so I began to sneak out of the bunk when suddenly, a tiny little hand grabbed my wrist. I looked at Trent and he said, "Mama, I wovvvee you." My heart just about melted. I leaned down to kiss him and he grabbed my face softly and said, "Mama, come here....cuddle." How could I resist that?!

I began to lie down AGAIN, when surprisingly, he slide his body up a bit and he grabbed my head and pulled me again his chest. I wondered what he was doing when he kept telling me in a near whisper that he wanted to cuddle. I nuzzled into his chest because that's what he was trying to get me to do, when he began to kiss my head softly and run his fingers through my hair like I always do to him. I don't know how long we stayed like that (it seemed like a long time) but I began to cry. It was just the sweetest moment that I've ever had with Trent. He continued to kiss me, cuddle me and run his fingers along my scalp until he fell asleep. Even after I could hear him snoring softly, I stayed like that, not wanting the moment to end.

Eventually, I snuck out of the bunk and made my way to my own bed. I will always cherish the tender moment that Trent and I had the other night. He was such a good boy this weekend, even when we stopped by the wedding venue to drop some stuff off for my mom and help decorate a little bit (she designed the wedding for her god daughter).

It's times like the one Trent and I had the other night that make even the worst temper tantrum worth every moment of motherhood!